But that’s difficult when I really want to reach the endpoint as I am sure I will be much happier (something I have wanted my whole life and just when I thought I was getting somewhere after all those years in the closet denying, I am now scared of losing it all). Being able to be myself has made a massive difference to the anxiety relief that I used to have.

I can’t be that scared of people knowing as when I see friends and family or colleagues (in male) they have all noticed changes in my appearance looking more feminine even as male. There are the odd comments about long hair, odd staring at my long shiny nails, my hairless arms, soft facial skin, etc. It’s obvious they know something is happening, and I don’t try to hide things from them anymore (I don’t flaunt things either).